So its thanksgiving break and I came home to Utah to visit some much missed food, friends, and family. Coming home gave me a bit of anxiety. I felt like I havnt been gone very long, and nothing about Ogden seems to have changed that much. Things are still cool here and all my friends hair is just a bit longer, but its still the same Ogden. Pretty in its same ways. I raced the cross races here this weekend and loved it. But coming back to Ogden really has me thinking how much I love Durango, How perfect Fort Lewis College is for me, and how lucky I am to be on the FLC Cycling team with such neat fast people. I may not be able to go to school next semester, but I plan on staying in Durango and working so I can gain my residency in Colorado and save some money for next summer semester. I am happy to feel happy if you know what I mean. Last winter I seemed to have vanished in a thick mist of change and have finally found my out again fresh, new, and enthusiastic about my future. I still fight negative self talk and self hatred, but daily find self love, and am mindful of what is and that "it" is what it is and thats just fine. Life is beautiful. I am a beautiful person. I can achieve much, and I can spread happiness too others. Kate Shavel has been a blessing in my life. She is such positive liver. She makes the most of everyday and is not blind to the beauty in little things. I love that in her and she helps me to see goodness in myself and in life. I am lucky to be me.
me at heber cross in utah. that was a rough day of racing after much driving the day before. It was a "training race" ;)
me at heber cross in utah. that was a rough day of racing after much driving the day before. It was a "training race" ;)