Kind of Depressing

Do you ever have those mornings where you wake up and just feel depressed? Like you are just a waste of space, time, breath, life...? Thats me. Almost daily. Sure some days I dont really notice. Really I dont feel at all some days. I just wake up and go ride. I put myself through massive amounts of pain on my bike and for what... I dont know? Just holding on to something I guess. Cant wait to go to school. Need the structure. Life... hmm haah!